Save the day..

 Another hard day went true.. like any other day you will survive.. keep optimistic alive.. *hugkiss*

 

Everybody has difficult years, but a lot of times the difficult years end up being the greatest years of your whole entire life, if you survive them. Brittany Murphy, Seventeen Magazine, September 2003

  

Love this quote, always reminds me to believing their is a huge power in this little body :)

Eid Mubarak everyone :)

Eid Mubarak to all of you... Minal aidzin walfaidzin.. Please forgive my mistaken.. after in a past 1 month we had Ramadhan.. May Allah swt accept our worship. Amien.. Just like another year after my father was passed away, me with my sister have a new traditions. my father was born number 2 from 7, and of course after the my auntie passed away my father become the oldest from all. at the time I was busy become a host, preparing to serve my family will be main of the hectic time.. I missed that time..
But now everything's change :)
In the first Lebaran Day.. I used to be pray in the town government yard, and when we get back to my place opor, manisa and lontong was waiting.. yummy.. this is why I like lebaran a lot..
Day 2 will be visiting my father grave yard in Sidoarjo, we pray for him..  Next plan will be meet up with my mom at her place in Lawang, we eat satay together to cherish the moment.. :)
she is looks tired.. the sky looks dark it's about 7pm.. mom need to take her medicine and get rest.. We said good night to her and back to Surabaya..
Day 3 will be family gathering called Halal bihalal.. ask forgiveness to everybody.. and this is the same day with Mom birthday (*my auntie that raise me) she blow her candle in front of family.. best wishes for you Mom..

That's will be all from my Lebaran day :)

Intoduction video for AIESEC NSU Russia

 

My Introduction video for AIESEC NSU Russia

their TN Manager asking me for making some short word and interesting picture for member in their LC

than I made it, start with searching in you tube looking for some inspiration and I found a video, it's a girl introduction her self for LC in other country so I make my own also.

she is my inspiration, that's why I'm not deny that there is some part that same like mine.

well thank you for the inspiration..

Time run fast this time

I'm about to face something new.. something that I'm not used to..

at the moment is day by day counting down.. getting closer..

my heart pounds.. hardly I could hear it.. nervous..

God help me to become capable.. capable to face every moment that testing my courage's and keep this passion alive.. amiien..

Rainy

  It's been one full day and the rain didn't stop yet..

some part of me say, rain also represent my feeling. something was missing inside of me. but also feeling free in the same time.. I'm feeling cold, but warm also surrounded my body..

Behind my smile, is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I’m falling apart. But look closely at me and u’ll see the strongest person ever..

a while ago.. nice place called "Karimun Jawa"

 

I will come back to this place for sure..

this picture may not tell all the story but I will. another time will do..

Katy Perry Teenage Dream lyrics

Katy Perry Teenage Dream lyrics

You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
Katy Perry Teenage Dream lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/katy-perry-teenage-dream-lyrics.html
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back


I'm posting it here just in case if you curious my music background LOL

What Michael Jordan said about FEAR?

I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot. Why?
Because when you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.
If I'm going to jump into a pool of water, even though I can't swim, I'm thinking about being able to swim at least enough to survive. I'm not jumping in thinking to myself, "I think I can swim, but maybe I'll drown." If I'm jumping into any situation, I'm thinking I'm going to be successful. I'm not thinking about what happens if I fail.

But I can see how some people get frozen by that fear of failure.
They get it from peers or from just thinking about the possibility of a negative result. They might be afraid of looking bad or being embarrassed. That's not good enough for me. I realized that if I was going to achieve anything in life, I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it. I don't believe you can achieve anything by being passive. I know fear is an obstacle for some people, but it's an illusion to me. Once I'm in there, I'm not thinking about anything except what I'm trying to accomplish.

Any fear is an illusion. You think something is standing in your way, but nothing is really there. What is there is an opportunity to do your best and gain some success. If it turns out my best isn't good enough, then at least I'll never be able to look back and say I was too afraid to try. Maybe I just didn't have it. Maybe I just wasn't good enough. There's nothing wrong with that and nothing to be afraid of either. Failure always made me try harder the next time. That's why my advice has always been to "think positive" and find fuel in failure.

Sometimes failure actually just gets you closer to where you want to be.
If I’m trying to fix a car, every time I try something that doesn't work, I'm getting closer to finding the answer. The greatest inventions in the world had hundreds of failures before the answers were found. I think fear sometimes comes from a lack of focus or concentration, especially in sports.
If I had stood at the free-throw line and thought about 10 million people watching me on the other side of the camera lens,
I couldn't have made anything. So I mentally tried to put myself in a familiar place.

I thought about all those times I shot free throws in practice and went through the same motion, the same technique that I had used thousands of times. You forget about the outcome. You know you are doing the right things. So you relax and perform. After that you can't control anything anyway. It's out of your hands, so don't worry about it.

It's no different than making a presentation in the business world or
doing a report for school. If you did all the things necessary, then
it's out of your hands. Either the clients liked the presentation or
they didn't. It's up to the client, the buyer or the teacher. I can accept failure. Everyone fails at something. But I can't accept
not trying. That's why I wasn't afraid to try baseball. I can't say,
"Well, I can't do it because I'm afraid I may not make the team." That's not good enough for me. It doesn't matter if you win as long as you give everything in your heart and work at it 110 percent. Fear is an illusion.

Michael Jordan

Block leave taken

We called our self RBDP at the time

second day after taking my block leave. got to prepare everything. 

after all this 2 years this orange bank was giving my everything's call experience..

never good never bad. It just an experiences.